06.20.2005 | 9:38 a.m.
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever

Yesterday was wonderful and busy. Overall the weekend was wonderful.
I am recovering from the cervical procedures okay. I will spare you the details but the doctor was a liar that it wouldn’t hurt to bad. It hurt. It hurts. I think it will be a while before everything is back to normal. I should heat back from her today to see if we got all of the cancerous and pre-cancerous cells. *sigh* Afterwards, JV took care of me. We went out for Mallard’s Ice Cream and bed rest. It is KILLING me that I cannot do any cardio for a week and a half. I feel like such a bump on a log. It is making me feel kind of down (as exercise is natures anti-depressant). I just plain feel cabin fever.

JV has also been wonderful in asking me if I need anything. He is totally enforcing that I take it easy. We saw the new Batman movie. I loved it. It is the best Batman movie yet. It was dark and told a good story about the why and how of Batman. We also went to a Concert at Big Rock Park. It was lovely to hear a saxophone quartet play classical music, jazz, and some contemporary. The weather was great with the art sculptures and butterflies. Enter my allergies – yuck.

Following the concert, We had a glass of wine on the porch, blue grass playing. JV eat meatloaf and we shared a mozzarella spring salad I made. We shared SF FF cheesecake pudding and napped. We then went to the cutest “A Midsummer Nights Dream” played be the local Children’s Swan theater.

The ended with us relaxing on the couch and watching Rocky II. I have never seen the Rock movies (we saw the first one the night before). So, as you can see, the weekend was wonderfully busy, but healing cervix friendly.

Never mind that my ED issues haunted the great weekend. There is nothing worse than great weather and feeling to fat to dress down. Strike that. There is something worse. Putting on last summer’s shorts and having them be to tight! I had to fight back tear a number of times. Part of me wants to wear those shorts everyday while I am at home

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005