02.15.2005 | 11:57 a.m.
v-day details, i am not alone in this

Valentines day was wonderful.

i got J two bruce lee DVDs, lo-carb chocolates and a wok and stir fry cookbook.

i got me chocolates truffles, fresh strawberry eclairs (yikes!), a card game for us to paly, 6 red roses, and a wonderful card.

the card it self reads "To the woman I love. Here's to our love...and all that it means to me. Happy Valentine's Day."

get this! here is what he wrote "My dearest Monkey, I am so happy to be able to spend another valentine's day with you. Although there is no question to who my valentine is, I will still ask, Will you be my Valentine? May our next valenetine's days be filled with as much love and memories that our first two have. I love you with ever-lasting Endurance, Always and Forever. J V"

He took me out to a new Thai restaurant. We ordered lover's tea, a glass of wine. i ordered basil and green beans (healthy) and brown rice. i only eat 1/3 of the green beans, a few bites of his bell peppers. and half of the rice.

i really need to get back on the hardcore fasting, especially with feeling better from being sick.

broth only today.

oh, and the abnormal pap. J is being soooo supportive. he assures me that things will be okay. he says that he loves me and not to worry. he doesn't think that it is my fault if it turns out to be a strain of HPV (I've only kissed like 5 people and have had 4 lovers ever). he would love to have kids someday with me, but he that it would warm his heart to adopt if i have cancer. BUT, warned me not to think about it, just think that i am not alone in this.

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