02.14.2005 | 11:06 a.m.
working out, chick broth, abnormal pap, 2 week wait.

worked out last night.

i have been sick and had to take a break for 3 days. living off chicken broth. i hope that i lost weight. i have fasting. i am to afraid to check. i will keep this up until the end of the month and see if there are any fruits of my labor.

i ran 2 miles and worked my chest, shoulders, and tricepts. i don't even feel sore today, wonder if i am pushing myself more.

i got a call of planned parenthood. my yearly pap came out abnormal. this is has never happend. i am really scared. they are running another test ($55) to see if it is one of the many HPV tests or cervial cancer. i am freaking out. i have been with J for nearly 2 years, and then it was E for like 3 years. no cheating on either side. i am freaking out. the results come back in 2 weeks. i have to go to work and come home at 3:30pm.

what a valantines day.

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