02.09.2005 | 4:50 p.m.
109 (the scale has been wrong since November!)

Well, working out and weight training has lowered my body fat percentage from 20% to 18%.

Turns out that my 105 in November was wrong. The gym had their scales recalibrated, they were 4 pounds to low! I was at 105 in November at 18.5% when actually I was 109.

When I got my body composition done, I found this out and so I weighted in at 109 and 18% body fat. He said that that is like lossing a full precent of fat and gaining lean muscule mass while maintaining 109!

I want to die! I have been fasting since. My goal is be 105 next month and super of I lower my body fat.

I am adding weight training so... who know. He says that this will help me see how pounds don't matter it is amount of fat and muscle.

I just want to die.

I haven't weighted this much in at least 4 or 5 years!

I must get down to 105 in a month. I have tooo.....

Once I get down to (IF I get down to) 100 I will reward myself with a new at home digital scale.

God....I need to fast.

Yesterday:
Chicken Broth
Slice of Bread with Cheeze
Cup of dry cereal

Today:
Two cups of dru cereal (so far)

J wants to workout tonight. I have taken two nights off because of an injury and having a cold. I think I should go tonight, no matter what!

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005