04.17.2004 | 8:15am
back to sits up, must be 100 OR ELSE DAMB IT!

04.17.2004 | 8:14 p.m.

back to sits up, must be 100 OR ELSE DAMB IT!

i want to badly to be back at 97lbs...

i was 102 last friday...i wanted to die. i have started 200 situps in the morning again and weight training everyday for over a week now! the weather is going to be getting warm and i am going to remember how i was last spring (broken up but painfully thin) and i am going to hate seeing the skinny young girls bouncing around the campus and i am going to hate myself. my hips make me look square. AHHHHHHHHH

today it was

breadfast: coffee, water,

lunch: nothing

dinner:a small salad no dressing, a cup of tomato soup, a piece of bread.

snack: tea and biscotti

yesterday:

breakfast: nothing

lunch: coffee, water,

snack: chocolate, soda, half a cookie

dinner: coffee, LF scone

I MUST BE BACK TO AT LEAST 100!!!!!!!!!

I MUST BELIEVE I CAN DO IT!

J is starting to train again and GOOD GOD I cannot have him get in even better shape than he already is...

I WILL NOT BE THE PIGGY ROUND girlfriend to a guy everygirl has her eyes on, every one thing "WHAT IS SOMEONE SO HOT DOING WITH THAT THINK GIRL?"

I HATE BEING OUT OF SHAPE AND THICK.

Am I the only one feels like you have already be thin and lean in order to excersize in public? I will get too 100 and THEN going running everynight to speed up the road to 97.

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
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LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
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translated weight - 06.02.2005