02.01.2004 | 11:05 a.m.
99.103.100.flu.snowball.upside of no superboal party

ok ok ok

i got the flu and is sucks

a huge snowball developed

it starts with getting the flu

not wanting to eat

having to eat and all the drama that goes with

and not having energy to workout

so i sleep and lay down all day and feel like a fat pig

i am no longer tired but still sick and still have little energy BUT

damb i have the drive to go run forever and work out and lose weight

so i got up to 103 from 99 and wanted to end my life

yesterday morning i was down to 100 but the mirror told me that i am more like 110

i snacked a lot yesterday and today i think i can get away with not eating much (just fruit and veg's)

thats that! i started my intenship and it is great..i cannot talk too much about because it is all confidencial stuff and don't want to risk anyone connecting the dots. if anything it is out of respect for the clients i am working with

j is gone snowboarding for his class and will be back at 5:30ish. i was sad at first because i was planning this whole big superbowl party. the up side is not having to get all dolled up and hope his friends are impressed and not having to be around so much food!

today, it is cleaning and throwing stuff out. i figure the busier i am highter the chances of me mot sitting down and eating.

cheers!

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