06.22.2003 | 4:18 p.m.
hello heartache

i jumped to 104...

weeks later....E moved out and things are moving slow....crisis...saw a counselor 4 of the five days last week. depression....hello heartache

i am down to 95...i am at 97 right now...very weak, heart beating, rocking my chest...

i've seen him twice...he looks at me like he as if he is in love with me...with fresh eyes.

A good thing?

i had a phone conference interview. hope i get this job. don't want to raise my hopes...

i love him...

lord help me....going to church at 8am this coming week. gives me something to do. can't eat. don't want to lose, don't want to gain. if i was 75lbs i would still be terrified to gain.

i want him back...easy does it...slow and careful...

pray for me

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005