05.20.2003 | 9:43 p.m.
why do i eat when i reach 100?

why do i eat when i reach 100?

Clocked in at 100........again

yesterday i only ate two cups of steamed vegies and pb and j.

i day 100 and smiled.

When what did i do?

Breakfast = nf latte (the usual)& two cookies :(

Lunch = green saled (no dressing)& diet coke

Snack = two gram crakers :(

Dinner = two spring rolls and a cup of white rice

Why do i do this to myself? i get to 100 and then i freakin' eat! i feel worthless...

Tomarrow i'm not going to weight myself, only eat two apples and Pray that Thursday morning will say 100, 101 if i am lucky.

DAMB IT, DAMB ME! i WANT TO BE SKINNY! i WANT TO TURN HEADS! i WANT TO BE TOLD THAT i NEED TO GAIN! i WANT TO LOSE SO MUCH THAT E GETS WORRIED.

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