02.21.2003 | 6:35 p.m.
t o do, i hope

blah.....i am still not getting anything done. this weekend: presentation & handout article review ethics paper thesis drawing then ever alone i must i must do this 02.21.2003 | 5:18 p.m.

liquid nothing, mind f#$k, anxiety ball

11am - one tall non-fat latte

1130am - one bagel, unfinished

4pm - one tall non-fat chi tea

430pm half a granola bar

tonight? hopefully nothing

talked with some girls about not trusting men. that felt good, it made me feel less psycho about not being able to trust. it was also good to talk about how empowered i am now that i am older. what do i mean? i mean, there was time when i was scared to be alone and without a man to hold me and love me. now i realiz that i don't need E. i love him and want a future with him, but i have no room in my life for that needy can't-live-without-you i-am-nothing-befor-i met-you. i think that this culture we live in f#$*s with our idea of love. it's as if people think that you are not in love if you don't allow that person to take up every fiber of your being. besides love should feel secure not manic/depressive. i'm already an anxiety ball....speaking of

lost my keys, paniced (as usual)

really hope that i cease this weekendto get a lot done and not waste it.

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