02.01.2003 | 1:41 p.m.
pizza, mixed, pink, slower is better

lastnight, E ordered pizza. i eat # pieces!!!!!!!!! i have mixed feelings. one part of me bates myself for doing that. the older says that it is okay because i did lose weight and that was all eat all day.

i was too chicken to weigh myself this morning. skipped breakfast and want to skip lunch....SMALL dinner....i am thinking an apple and an orange.

E made love this morning. it was beautiful. the room was lit with pink light because of the pink drape i have over the window. i love how sexy i feel around him. i love how sexy he thinks i am. i want to at 100 until Feb 15 and then start losing again....i'd like to see 98lbs by end of Feb.

I have found that the slower I lose the easier it is to keep up. maybe because it allows for mess-ups (like last night) We'll see....i want to look good in the bikini by spring break

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005