02.18.2003 | 9:59 p.m.
recovery angel, lightheaded, inhumane

i hate my body i love my body. love hate. hate love. want to be 90lbs would end my life if i was 107 ... 105 sounds to scary. i am 101 and 103 is failure. 100 is lightheaded and my recovery angel tells me that i should be looking down that road. i'd be a cow if it wasn't for the inhumane demands of grad school

good days bad days. bad days make bad days look good and good days bad. only i understand that last one.

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005