01.02.2003 | 11:40 a.m.
visit

E came home last night at noonnight. he was so tired. this morning we went shopping for food while he is at work on the mountain. poor thing. i am usually very stingy about spending $$ on food. for some reason i was more than pleased to send him off with food (soup, pasta, cheesy poofs, milk, etc). maybe i like it because i know he will be thinking of me. he is off again this afternoon, to come back on friday at 8pm. i am kinda glad to have this time to myself. i also know that he wil be happy to see me and be home on friday. he makes me so happy lately. i cannot believe that we've been an item for 2 years and three months...i reckon. i love the little pet names he gives me. publicly he calls me fish or misses. there is lover, little damsel, fink, dirty girl, cutie, "my steady".... i call him my mister, mister man, monkey, big monster, cutie, lover, suitor... yes, we're pretty sappy. i hate hearing other couples say, "just wait, after three years together you don't do those kind of things." i call bull shit on that. we have become more comfortable and more flirty over time. i would be worried if this sappiness haulted. when we are together i sometimes forget how fat i think i am. i don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. good because it feels good. bad because i don't want to start pigging out. what to do what to do.... maybe my thesis write a thankyou card to his mother write my sister's family a letter read a cosmo and get depressed and hopefully motivated to go some yoga and/or work out some. i think i will go tanning on monday 01.01.2003 | 9:30 p.m.
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I managed to avoid getting anything done today. once cheese sandwhich organized my thesis files tweezed the eye brown haven't gained or lost weight, good? bad? fiddled with templates fun times fun times 01.01.2003 | 9:15 a.m.
Whistler, no one watched, resolutions

I went up to Whistler, Canada for the first time ever. A side from it being the perfect trip, I would have to say it was painful. I had to sit in the back of my bf’s truck the whole 9+ hour drive up there (his mom had to sit in the passenger seat). I back was swollen the rest of the day and part of the next. After that, it became painfully obvious that my snowboarding boots were a size to small. His mother actually bought me new boats! We boarded (he skied) up to the peak of Whistler and all over Blackcomb. It was nice to board just the two of us one day and the rest of the days with his German friend and his gf, Andréas and Ula. His brother and his gf made it all but uncomfortable for us when it came closer to our early departure. This is another story.

I cannot wait to get our pictures developed. I don’t even want to figure out what I have spent up there and my rent is due by the 10th! I need to figure out what classes I will be taking, as classes start on Tuesday. I need to work on my thesis. I need to prepare for the class that I will be teaching. Ack! The vacation was needed yet a hindrance. I am not showering today. Instead, I am going to bum around my apartment and be productive.

Unfortunately, I’m elated that I managed to eat VERY little the whole time up there. Boarding for seven hours a day and one extremely small meal a day felt good after a naughtier snack-filled first half of vacation. It was to my disadvantage that people didn’t notice me not eating. Everyone gathered around the breakfast table as I only drank black coffee and dry piece of toast. We were on the mountain during what would have been lunch. Dinner was a salad and three bites of the main course. That is all.

Oh, ya, happy New Years! I was sick one the last day in Canada, New Year’s Eve. E and I were going to go and dance in the New Year. However, I was sick, he had to get up for work at 6am and we were both tucked from all the exercise and driving.

New Years resolutions, anyone?

1.There is every women’s token resolution … to lose weight. I’d like to see me at 100 or 90 lbs.

2.Trust E more.

3.Write my sister more often.

4.Go tanning (I’m really struggling for ideas for this)

5.Make being at school 22/7 more enjoyable.

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Last Five:
empty, force, hope, too much - 07.31.2005
hello heartache, hello faith, hello confusion - 07.5.2005
LITANY AGAINST FEAR - 07.12.2005
healing, wonderful, the worse thing ever - 06.20.2005
translated weight - 06.02.2005